But on the flipside.....I also lost something else of equal, if not greater, importance. I lost weight. 50 pds., to be exact. And with that loss came many gains. I gained back the self-respect that I'd lost along with the job. I gained self-confidence. I again started to like person I was seeing in the mirror. I gained courage - much needed courage to be able to set goals for myself and courage to work towards reaching them. Courage to put away self-hate, self-doubt, and work towards becoming a better person. Ok, so I never really hated myself. But I have always been plagued by self-doubt and indecision. I'm a second-guesser from waaay back. And I've always hated that about myself. It takes courage to change things that are deeply ingrained. But you have to do it or things will always stay the same (duh?). For me that was not an option. I want change. I need change. I want more for myself. I need more for myself. That being said, 2011 is going to be the bomb! And so really,... I guess I have you to thank, 2010. Without your crapping on me so badly, I never would've come to this epiphany. So while it may be fitting for me to offer expressions of appreciation and gratitude, let me just say this:
"PEACE OUT 2010....AND I'M NOT SAD TO SEE YOU GO. IF I EVER CATCH YOU AROUND THESE PARTS AGAIN, THERE'LL BE H*LL TO PAY!!!"