Sunday, April 21, 2013
Days 7 - 20
** We Interrupt this normally scheduled program......"
OMG, where did Days 7 - 20 go??? Look like someone's been slacking on her game....
Ok, what HAD HAPPENED WAS I had a couple of issues going on at the same time. Job issues, which I would truly love to explain to ya'll so I could get some advice but you just.never.know.who.is.reading... the streets is always watching, mane! So anyway, let's just do a quick summation of Days 7 - 20:
DAY 7: What is your view of Cheating People? While not all cheaters are lying scumbags, they are all liars. And cowards. I understand people grow apart, but if the issues cannot be resolved, just end it properly. Don't cheat. That is betrayal wosre than a departure from someone's life.
DAY 8: Something You're Currently Worrying About Let's see, where to start...if I had to narrow down the top 2 issues causing angst, I would say money and mo' money!!!
DAY 9: Your Last Kiss Hmm,....I'll fill you in on my next kiss - how 'bout that?
DAY 10: Your Views On Drugs and Alcohol Just say NO. Wait, to drugs I mean. Now alcohol....lol. To quote "Sir K. Lamar":
"Now I done been around some people living their lives in bottles
Grandaddy had the golden flask...."
Like many, I have a few alcoholics in my family. Wanted better for them but loved them nonetheless. Personally, I have a low tolerance for alcohol (true story: I once had a White Russian and slept for 18 hrs! No lie!!!) so when I do drink, it's moderately and my drink of choice is rum & coke.
DAY 11: Your Current Relationship, If Single, How is Single Life? I am single. Single life is looking better and better - I wasted time pining after someone I should not have, all the while bypassing other interested parties. I SHAN'T MAKE THAT MISTAKE HENCEFORTH and already rectifying the error.....
DAY 12: Things You Would Want to Say to An Ex "I hold no malice towards you. You taught me alot about myself. I thank you for all that you taught me. I am not only a better person because of it, but a better woman, for sure. I accept my role in this, as I put myself in this position. I saw something I wanted to see, but was not there. But I have to say what bothered me most is that I willingly accepted all of your craziness and flaws, and yet you tolerated none of mine. I supported all of your endeavors, and played the part of your hype-woman on many occasions. Yet, you made no such efforts towards me. You laughed when I tried to share my ideas and dreams with you, and called them (and me) stupid on more than on occasion. You refused to ever read my blog, even when I advised you of posts pertaining to you. When I had business cards made up for my blog and I excitedly offered you one, you coldly rejected it and said you would "tear it up if you accepted it." I did not deserve any of that, not even as a friend. I indeed was a better friend to you than you were to me. And I loved you from my heart. But I accept 100% of the responsibility because you offered me no illusions, yet I again saw something that was not there. I put myself in that position. You are indeed a liar, yet you have told me the truth and shown me the truth, about who you are as well as who I am. And that is priceless. I hold no malice towards you whatsoever. I am not the victim and I won't speak poorly of you. After this, I won't speak of you again. I am a person who likes to learn, and I have indeed learned from this and will continue to do so. Because of you, I have grown in the way that only experience can teach you. And now I can soar. From the bottom of my heart I thank you, Sounder Rasmussen. Two times. ;-)
DAY 14: Something Disgusting You Do I've developed the bad habit, through no fault of my own, of sucking my teeth. I was taking a medication that listed that as an "uncommon" side effect, and lo and behold - I started sucking my teeth! That was 6 months ago, the medication has long been abandoned, and yet I can't stop....that sucks! No pun intended.
DAY 15: The Best Thing To Happen To You This Week Scales fell of my eyes and I woke up. (see Day 12) Coincidentally, this was also the worst thing (see Day 12).
DAY 16: 3 Things You Are Proud Of About Your Personality 1.) I'm not a follower and I mostly don't care what people think of me, though I was raised to do so....2.) I am kind-hearted and compassionate (which often works to my detriment, actually) ...3.) I have worked hard to overcome childhood trust issues. I offer trust freely now...until I have a reason to no longer.
DAY 17: Things That Make You Scared Large Dogs, losing my family/friends, not learning from mistakes and repeating them
DAYS 18 - 20: Freestyle Summing up to say it would seem I'm failing on the 30 Days of Blogging Challenge, would it not? smh. Oddly enough, I am loving these challenges and I am KILLING IT in the 30 Days No Fast Food and 30 Days No Soda challenges. I have not cheated once and I will be eliminating soda and fast food altogether from my diet. The 30 Days Saving $ challenge has proven to be far more difficult, but I am trucking along. I already save $, but the goal of that challenge is to save a larger amount by month's end. And due to my less-than-stellar medical insurance (you suck, Aetna!), I have medical bills out the wazoo that I'm trying to pay off. I went from having absolutely no debt to having medical debt in one fell swoop and it sucks like a....I shant get on a tangent, I digress. Anyway, personal growth is very necessary to acieving goals so I plan on doing a different challenge every month. This has been good for me. So, I'll catch you back up on Day 21.